My name's Vanessa- boys are cute and i'm from from Canada.

5 Things They Don’t Teach you in Highschool:

1) You’re going to leave the house at 2AM, 16 with nothing in your pockets but 50 bucks and a bus ticket. It won’t feel real. You’re going to think you’re leaving, but you aren’t going anywhere.

2) Swallow your fucking pride and go back inside. Lock your bedroom door, put your hands over your ears, bring your knees to your chest and when you’re ready, let your walls disintegrate and the sadness flood in, because baby I promise you, you’ll feel better if you just let yourself drown. Even if it’s the third goddamn time that week.

3) He’s going to taste like Newports, Trident spearmint and desperation. You’re going to taste like Lime-a-Rita’s and anxiety. You will tell yourself you need this. But you don’t. I promise you. You don’t. You don’t.

4) You’re going to have girlfriends who fall for boys who treat them like absolute shit. Do not learn from them. If a boy calls you a bitch, spit in his face and leave.

5) Do it even if it’s the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do. Even if you’re still convinced that he was hiding galaxies beneath his skin. Because baby I promise you, he was the always dark night sky and you were always the full moon. No question bout’ it.

— Abbie Nielsen - passionandcoffeestains (via bruisedbbygirl)

Freaks and Geeks (1999) is an American teen comedy-drama television series created by Pail Feig and produced by Judd Apatow. It centres on the universal experience of teenagehood as lived by the regular old freaks and geeks in a Michigan High school circa 1980.
 Revolving around the lives of freak and geek siblings Lindsay and Sam Weir, the show includes the everyday fears, humiliations and little triumphs of adolescents past, present and, no doubt, future, too. Jolted by the death of her grandmother, Lindsay dons her dad’s old Army jacket and fights the one-girl battle of McKinley High. Drifting away from her studious friends, she finds herself increasingly drawn to others like her, the “freaks” who refuse to accept the status quo. Sam navigates high school like a mouse in a maze. Threatened at every turn, and attracted to an unattainable cheerleader, but he has good friends. Sure, they’re “geeks,” but so is Sam.
 Eighteen episodes were completed, but the series was canceled after only twelve had aired. A fan-led campaign caused NBC to broadcast three more episodes that were not seen until aired in syndication by Fox Family Channel. 

Episode 1: Pilot
Episode 2: Beers and Weirs
Episode 3: Tricks and Treats
Episode 4: Kim Kelly is My Friend
Episode 5: Tests and Breasts
Episode 6: I’m With the Band
Episode 7: Carded and Discarded
Episode 8: Girlfriends and Boyfriends
Episode 9: We’ve Got Spirit
Episode 10: The Diary
Episode 11: Looks and Books
Episode 12: The Garage Door
Episode 13: Chokin’ and Tokin’
Episode 14: Dead Dogs and Gym Teachers
Episode 15: Noshing and Moshing
Episode 16: Smooching and Mooching
Episode 17: The Little Thingsj
'I still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.'
— Kurt Vonnegut (via zeynmalik)


me during sports class

#maybe thats why it took you so long to get to mordor
'April was too lonely a month to spend alone. In April, everyone around me looked happy. People would throw their coats off and enjoy each other’s company in the sunshine—talking, playing catch, holding hands. But I was always by myself.'
— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood  (via Bodv)

This picture is somewhat hard for me to post. I wasn’t even at my heaviest on the left. There is a 120lb difference in the two pictures.  So much has changed. My skin,  my butt, hair, boobs…etc. 

I am still a work in progress and need to drop another 40 lbs but that number use to be 160lbs to lose! I hope someday I am an inspiration to others. You ladies ( and gentleman ) out there that are over 300lbs. I promise, you CAN do it. Hard work and determination go long, long way.